I broke up with her so that I could fix me. I’m so disturbed. I fuck up everything good in my life no matter what it is. I had my reasons for breaking up with her, and she took it really hard. I still care and still love her, but I’m tired of unintentionally emotionally hurting her all the time. I couldn’t put her through it anymore. She deserves better. And yet I still feel guilty, and I was stupid enough to call her, knowing it was going to hurt me. But I had to hear her voice and know that she was okay. And she turns my reasons around on me and makes me feel like the bad guy. It was no one’s fault. I just need to worry about myself for once in my pathetic life so I can fix me. I’m tired of hurting, and fucking up, and ruining everything I have going for me.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Oh well, nothing another cut can’t fix right? Maybe it’ll be deeper this time. Maybe I won’t wake up.
Then I can put an end to my reign of tyranny upon everyone I come into contact with.